easy satisfied?

Maybe i am person who is easily get satisfied in work. Last 2 week, i was unhappy and disappointed when my boss did not increase my salary after my probation period. Is it because of resigning then you do not want to increase my salary as what you have promised me? Although it is just RM 200 increment but it does affect my emotion. Not that money minded, it is the promise and appreciation.

Yesterday, she discussed on this issue to me because i voice it out. Then, she told me she will prepare a "package" for me when i resign later. She say she will have some arrangement on that. Although not giving anything to me on the spot but i feel happy. At least, just showing the appreciation to me all this while by discussing the issue to me. I always like this, want people to focus and care for me!!!

Should i get angry?

Hmm... Should i angry at you?

I understand that when we are having some new challenge, we will feel tension and emotion might be affected.

But, i really unhappy when you cannot take the challenge and start to have some unstable emotion. Yes, you are correct when we are going to change our job because you are not enjoying the existing job environment. At the same time, you got to get prepared with the coming interview. i can understand that your feeling and situation. But i just do not want to take things as problem.

As a close the other part, i hope you can handle it nicely. I just do not want you lose any chances to expand your career. You know? I will always trust you. Just that i really do not want the new challenge will affect your emotion and affect our relationship.

Scary experience

Although i have quite a number of training, but today is the scariest one, i would say so.

When i was having the training in C.P. hotel, i noticed the trainees looked weird and "gancheong". They were looking at one of the trainees. Then, some of them started to move towards the guy. I looked at him. His hands and legs just cannot be controlled, tensed up. He seem like difficult to breath and control his muscle. Then, collection of foam was form at his mouth. Then, i realized that he is having convulsion, or in bahasa, we call it as sawan.

I was scared. This was the first time i saw "sawan". I just do not know what to do. Furthermore, i wanted to cry, because i was so scared, worried at him.

The other trainees then carried him out of the training room and let him have a rest. According to them, he used to have this quite often. I even got to stop the class, let everyone including me myself to calm down. Then, i got to know that he had been sent to the nearby clinic.

I really hope that he is fine!!!

English Version can ah?

Stupid people sent me virus. Caused my computer kena virus. All things including my Chinese Star were lost. Angry! But maybe i am the one who is stupid!

So, i use English to write my blog, is it look ok?

Yesterday, i went to Kelantan because of work purpose. What a tiring day. Went there only for one day, means fly there in the early morning and back at night.

But, got something from there. At least i know someone is treating me very good. Touched! He was worried because Kelantan sound like a ulu ulu place. In fact, the place i gave the training was quite ulu. The name is Setiu, actually it is in terengganu, just that the distance with Kota bahru is nearer if compared to kuala terengganu. It is a forest. place for our National Service students. I got to train the food handlers who are going to prepare the food to the students. Actually he was rushing for his work too. So, because of me, he got to stay back and rushed the day before he accompanied me. Hmm..when i had my training, he just sat behind of the class. I know he is boring there. Glad he was there to help me a lot!

Then, i got another experience too! i had chance to visit and used one of the "washroom" in the malay Kampung. I felt so weird. I got to explain that i am not kind of sombong people. But be frankly, i cannot stand with the washroom. Imagine when you stand up and want to zip your pants, people can see your face and your shoulder part (for girl). Of course, when you wee wee, people cannot see. But if they come nearer, they can see oh! I felt so scared!

In conclusion, the trip to Kelantan can be considered as a good experience, not that bad as what i imagine. So, good try!

喜歡－失望－絕望

許多人都喜歡寫“喜歡”的感覺。可是，我還是堅持要寫我的， 因為自己經歷的肯定是最特別的。

喜歡－

喜歡就是一種最簡單的感覺了。 雖然你知道A 對你比B 的還要好一佰倍，可是如果你喜歡的就只有B， 你就會毫無顧慮地向他沖去， 哪怕他是一面會讓你撞得頭破血流的硬檣, 哪怕他曾經傷害你有多深。×＄＃℃＃ 笨蛋啊！

只 要他稍微傳你一則短訊， 告訴你他已經安全到家， 你就欣喜若狂，興奮無比。當你獲知原來這一年你用來忘記他的時間里， 他的記憶里原來還有著你的一點一滴， 你會立即把之前答應自己放下他的決心， 毅力通通給忘記， 然後告訴他“我真得很想念你”。當你也覺得他看見你時他也很開心， 你會很希望時間在那刻停止下來！

失望－

可是，之後的日子， 他又對你忽冷忽熱了， 直覺里你會感覺到有一些問題在纏著他，讓他不能百分百地愛你。這時候是最辛苦了，“愛我需要猶豫那么多嗎？” 你肯定不能釋怀，因為根本沒有理由讓你放棄。

絕望－

直到獲知一個很合理的理由，原來他一直有女朋友。感謝他終於告訴你這事實！至少你有一個充分的理由讓自己放下他。

總結－

要善待自己， 他不值得你為他傷心， 因為他不懂得珍惜你！

生命無常

今天一早就被一通電話吵醒，朋友的公公去世了。

每次到朋友的家， 我也只是叫他一聲“阿伯”， 也沒多一句。可是， 心理面會不知覺地傷感起來。 其實， 我覺得對阿伯來說可能這是一種解脫， 因為他已經被這病痛折磨了一段日子， 差不多有半年了。由最初的行動不便，需要拐杖， 到近期的只能趟在床上， 而且四肢瘦骨如材，看了真讓人心酸。

可能， 我的年紀也不小了， 所以身邊逐漸有很多長輩過世。我不知你們是否有這樣的感覺， 害怕死亡的感覺。死后會怎樣呢？我是不是需要一些心靈的輔導呢？

朋友跟我說， 不需要想太多，勸我珍惜眼前所擁有的， 努力讓自己活得繽紛色彩。我必須加油， 努力地學習， 尤其是剛加入這間新公司，有太多的新事物讓我吸收。 我要享受每分鐘， 不要讓自己錯過美好的時光。